Khamoshi

    

Suna hai jab ma sir pe hath pherti h to need bahut pyri aati h.Bachpan me jab mai khana ni khata tha to ma apani good mai  leke chand ki taraf iasara krte hue lori sunati thi aur kahati thi kha le beta ni to unhe khila dungi.Aaj usi chand se maine pucha "kya hai tere pass aisi MAA".Chand ne jawab me sir jhukha liya.
Ma sir pe hath pher rhi thi aur mai bas yhi soch raha tha ki kas aaj ye rat duniya ki sbse lambi rat ban jati aur mai bs aise he leta rahata.Mai abhi apne khyaloo m duba he tha ki aakh jlne lgi aur suraj ki phli kiran mere aakho p padi .ma piche diwal p ludhk chuki thi,lekin ma ka hath abhi bhi mere mathe pe he tha .Ma kbhi itni der tk ni soi thi par pta ni kau aaj ma ka sir aag ki tarah tap rha tha.Mai ma ko jhgjhor rha tha unhe jagane ki har nakamyab kosis kr rha tha ,meri har aahat mahsus krne wali ma aaj pta ni kau mere itna chilane p bhi jawab ni de rhi thi.Ma ki mamata aaj bete ki aawaj pahachan se inkar kr rhi thi.
Mai buri tarah se kaap rha rha ye sb dekh k mujhe ma se dur kiya gya aur vaidh ji  ko bulane ka aadesh mila. mai kappti hatho se vaidh ji ka jhoola thame tha.Ma ka ilaj suru ho chuka tha aur meri kameej puri gili ho chuki thi.ek taraf glucose ki botlo se bunde tapak rhi thi to dusri taraf meri aakho se.Ghar wale pta ni kyu bhut presan the ek dusre k kano m mujhse chupate hue kuch kah rhe the.Unke mathe ka paseena unke dar ko bayan kar rha tha.Bhid ab badhne lgi aur mera dil jor jor se dhdkane lga .Mere maan m tarah tarah k sawal uth rhe  the .Pass me itni bhid hone k bad bhi mai khud ko bilkul akela mahsus kar rha tha.mere aasu he mere sathi the.mai ma k pairo ko kas k pakde hue tha.Gile aakho se ma ka chera thoda ojhal dikh rha tha.n jane kitni botle khtm ho gyi ma n aakhe ni  khuli aur ab to aasuo n bhi sath chod diya tha.Mai bebas najaro se bas ma ko nihar raha tha.
sbne har man li lekin mai itna kayar to ni tha ,mai abhi bhi usi umeed k sath pair pkde hue tha.kauki mujhe pta tha meri ma mujhse bhut pyar krti hai woh mujhe kbhi bhi in andho ki duniya m akela ni chodegi.
Sb jan chuke the ki meri umeed ab kuch he samya bad tutne wali h aur mera viswas andhviswas m bdlne wala hai.logo ki bate sunke mai uhne pagal bol rha tha lekin dusra phalu ye bhi to tha ki ek sath itne log pagal bhi to ni ho skte h n..

Pahalu koi bhi ho mai kisi ki bhi bat sunne ko raji n tha kisi bhi tarah ka smjhota krne ki ab to himmt n thi mujhme kauki samne leti Mahila ,sirf ek mahila to n thi.....woh to meri MA thi.
Are kaise man leta mai kisi ki bato ko kaise kr leta koi samjhauta  bs usi k liye to mai jeeta tha.Subaha se shaam ho gyi maine pairo ko ni chodha .rat bhar mai ma k pairo p sota rha ,
Phr se subhah hui chidiya chachahane lgi,par aaj unka chachahana bhi mujhe kawara n tha .mujhe bs meri ma ki aawaj sunni thi.Ma bhi thodi jiddi h usne bhi aakhe ni kholi, par mai beta bhi to usi ka  hu mai bhi ni hila.dar se pasine chut rhe the hausle ab mere bhi tut rhe the,bechani badhti ja rhi thi..Par aaj ma ko meri koi parwah na thi. maine bhi kasam kha li jb tk tu aakh ni kholegi mai khana ni khaunga.Ab ma mujhe bhukha to ni dekh skti thi.ma ki jidd mere pyar k samne kamjor ho gya aur ma n aaakhe khol di. Mujhe pyr se "beta" bola aur apne pass bulaya
ma ki aakh khulte he mere aasuo n ma ka swagat kiya ,jaise samunder ka bandh tut gya ho ,sukhi kameej phr se gili ho gyi .
mai kuch bol ni pa rha tha phr bhi maine kosis kr ke ma se kaha "Ma  mujhe tmse bat ni krni h...."
ma ka aachal bhig gya woh  mere aasu poch rahi thi.
isse jada mai kuch kah ni paya MA ne gale se lga liya .........
                                             
                                                                     
   
                                                                                                                  ABhishek Dubey